BPD in B&W

     Living with a 20 year-old brain is already a challenge. Living with a 20 year-old brain that also constantly contradicts itself is like living in a world with only extreme opposites: no more sweet spots, no more gray areas... only black and white.

     I’m what you would call an “observer”. I’m perceptive, I notice what most do not, so of course that would leak into my work. Every little detail is intentional. Some are more obvious: The choice of all black and white images reflect how I view the world, the presence (or lack thereof) of light to gauge the mood, and the more straightforward examples of mood swings and the use of an abandoned house to showcase “fear of abandonment”. That being said, some are more… subtle. I purposefully use my youngest sister to model as we share a similar resemblance and I tend to view myself as younger than I actually am. I have her dressed and positioned as I would in ways I know I would be because I am hyper aware of how I present myself and how my body language communicates. These images may come off as simply documenting one’s life, which yes, they are, but there are layers, there’s more hidden underneath the surface.

     The world doesn't see the inner turmoil of trying to understand your own mind but failing every. time. They don't see because how could they? Your isms and quirks to outsiders are just that: isms and quirks. They don’t see because your life appears so... normal.